Sam Newman has opened up about the sudden passing of his wife Amanda Brown, revealing her cause of death for the first time.
The Geelong legend and former AFL Footy Show host found his wife lying on the floor of their luxury Docklands apartment last month.
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Newman and Brown had been together for 20 years before officially tying the knot in November.
It was NewmanтАЩs fourth marriage, the ceremony taking place just days after BrownтАЩs 50th birthday.
The 75-year-old farewelled his late wife at a funeral service on May 13.
тАЬWhat do I miss about her? I miss everything about her,тАЭ Newman told 7News in an emotional interview.
He added BrownтАЩs death came as an immense shock and his grief is still very raw.
тАЬShe had no illnesses or underlying health problems,тАЭ Newman said.
тАЬJust to come home under those circumstances and find her where she was тАж well, IтАЩll just never forget that.
тАЬThe autopsy said she died from an aneurysm, a stroke. I have no idea what brought that on.
тАЬKnowing she was dead, that is just so surreal. You just think, тАШThis is not happeningтАЩ.
тАЬIt seems absolutely unfair and I actually often thought I would rather it be me than her. But then sheтАЩd be probably feeling like I do.тАЭ
Newman first spoke about his wifeтАЩs death on his podcast and has now revealed he did so in the hope Brown might hear his kind words.
тАЬSomewhere, Amanda might know I said that about her. Yeah, she might know,тАЭ he said, teary-eyed.
While the couple were together, Brown remained out of the public spotlight while Newman often copped fierce backlash for comments made on social media or his podcast.
The pair were notoriously private, rarely posing for photographs together.
Newman is a member of the Geelong Hall of Fame, having played 300 games for the club between 1964-80.
He has also had an extensive career in media, as a broadcast commentator and one of the faces of the AFL Footy Show from 1994 until 2018.
Newman said it will be difficult to adjust to life without his partner.
тАЬIтАЩve never been on my own ever since I left school,тАЭ he said.
The media personality also revealed he will move out of the apartment where Brown passed away to try and move on from the tragedy.
тАЬItтАЩs a terrific place where I live but the memories of where you walk in тАФ wow theyтАЩre pretty stark still тАФ so that (moving out) will probably help ease the pain a bit more,тАЭ he said.
Asked if his wifeтАЩs death had changed his outlook on life, Newman responded: тАЬYeah, IтАЩve become a little more compassionate.
тАЬIt wonтАЩt get any worse for me. ItтАЩll get gradually better and youтАЩve just got to stand up, remember who you are and push on.тАЭ
