Jan. 26, 2023 — Melissa Strong was living her dream.┬а
Home was Estes Park, CO, ┬аgateway to the glorious Rocky Mountain National Park.
Her passion was climbing, mostly bouldering, that purist sport of scaling big rocks without ropes, relying on just your fingertips, feet, and crash pads below.
Her career was hospitality, managing a busy restaurant while fantasizing about owning her own place.
Then it happened: the dream and a nightmare.┬а
At 43, she bought an old restaurant and gutted it. On April 2, 2017, Melissa was in her driveway adding decorative touches to the wooden legs of the tables for her restaurant, scheduled to open in a few months. She was using a high-voltage woodworking technique called fractal burning to create beautiful, river-like тАЬLichtenberg patterns.тАЭ┬а
It had gone well until she absent-mindedly grabbed the electrical leads of the wood burning tool when the 2,000-volt device was plugged in. The buzzing current pulsed through her. She couldn’t scream, couldn’t drop the electrodes, couldn’t move. Cut to black.
She entered an in-between state: тАЬAm I dead or alive?тАЭ A forest, a tunnel, a shaft of light, and the presence of a friend and her grandmother, both deceased. She sensed they didn’t want her to go in the tunnel.
She decided she needed to get back to Adam, her husband. тАЬIt was like a reverse-tunnel effect, and my eyes opened, and I saw the gravelтАЭ of the driveway, she says. ┬атАЬI could scream.тАЭ
When Adam, who was inside the house, opened the door, she blurted, тАЬHospital, now!тАЭ and collapsed in his arms. He carried her to his pickup. Her hands тАЬlooked like melted wax.тАЭ No blood but a horrible smell. Her screams and the speeding truck prompted neighbors to report a possible abduction. The wood-burning machine remained in the driveway, its circuit-breaker tripped.
The accident had sent a massive electrical current through her body, leaving her fingers a mangled, charred, acrid mess. тАЬI have no hands!тАЭ she screamed as Adam sped her to the local hospital.┬а
There Melissa was stabilized and airlifted to a hospital in Greeley.┬а
тАЬThey told me I’d only have four fingers — pinkies and index,тАЭ and likely no thumbs, Melissa recalls. Doctors knew her best hope was at the Burn and Frostbite Center at the University of Colorado Anschutz Medical Campus in Aurora.
As she was prepped for transfer, a nurse recognized her. She had climbed with Melissa once. тАЬYou were amazing,тАЭ she told Melissa. тАЬSo strong.тАЭ As Melissa blinked back tears, the nurse said the doctors in Aurora could work miracles.
Trauma and Response┬а
That nurse was right. Surgeons can work medical miracles, but a lot depends on the patient. How do they respond emotionally to devastating trauma? Are they engaged with their medical team?
Will they try to resume their prior lifestyle? Will they keep moving — literally — or succumb to common reactions like fatigue, exhaustion, and emotional numbness?┬а
Melissa always had goals: getting her restaurant up and running, solving the next climbing challenge. Anyone who saw her on the rock knew she was tenacious. Anyone who saw her work a restaurant shift knew she never stopped moving. But could she be the same without the thumbs and fingers she relied on, on the job and on a boulder?
Her active lifestyle gave her a leg up, so to speak. We know physical activity is good medicine.┬а
Studies show that exercise is nearly as effective in treating depression as medication. Moreover, researchers say it improves mental health, boosts immune function, promotes a sense of well-being and control. This in turn makes a patient more likely to take good care of herself and stick to a regimen that may lead to a better outcome.
Melissa’s doctors, who would indeed perform some miraculous procedures, agree that her story is a testament to grit, determination, and optimism in the face of grievous injury — and to the importance of movement and mindset for physical healing and mental health.
тАЬAnalyze, then overcome.тАЭ That was the climber’s approach that Melissa took in her recovery, says Ashley Ignatiuk, MD, her primary hand surgeon.
But first: you scream.┬а
Surgery and Prognosis┬а
Ignatiuk was the hand surgeon on call when Melissa arrived. тАЬImmediately I could tell she was a motivated patient,тАЭ he says. тАЬBut when I saw her hands, it was hard to tell what I could do because they were so fried. Literally charred.тАЭ
Thumbs were the priority. All the tissue on the palm side was dead. тАЬThe only way to keep the thumbs would be to give new tissue, to resurface what was lost.тАЭ
For all the suddenness of the accident, electrical burns are a slow-motion emergency. They don’t тАЬdeclare themselvesтАЭ entirely at first; the damage gets worse as days go by. Ignatiuk took a needle and poked the tips of her thumbs.┬а
тАЬWhen I saw some blood, that’s when I realized I could do something for her,” he says.┬а
Sewing injured body parts to healthy tissueтАФat the groin or chest, usuallyтАФis the typical move to allow healing blood flow into the smaller vessels of the extremities. But when it’s both hands?┬а
Ignatiuk says it was Melissa’s idea ┬а— although she says it was his — to sew each thumb to the opposite forearm. He and the resident plastic surgeon, Seth TeBockhorst, MD, performed the procedure, partially amputating four of Melissa’s fingers while ┬аsalvaging as much flesh as possible.
тАЬWe lifted flaps from both of her forearms, put her into an ‘I Dream of Jeannie’ pose, and then put the tissue from her forearms on her thumbs,тАЭ Ignatiuk says, тАЬand left her like that for 3 weeks.тАЭ
Seth TeBockhorst, MD, is a climber, and when he first saw Adam and Melissa, both lean and outdoorsy, тАЬI knew them for climbers by sight.тАЭ (It was mutual, Melissa recalls: тАЬHe was wearing an Arc’teryx jacket.тАЭ)
Before the big surgery ┬а— dead tissue had already been removed — TeBockhorst asked if she had any questions. тАЬAnd I said yeah,тАЭ Melissa recalls. тАЬWill I ever be able to climb V10 again?тАЭ
In bouldering, the difficulty of routes is graded from V1 (easy) to V16 (ridiculous). A V10 is professional level.
The doctor looked at her. тАЬYou’ve climbed V10?тАЭ Adam chimed in: тАЬShe’s climbed harder than that.тАЭ
тАЬIt was important to me that my surgeons knew that climbing was important to me, that I am an athlete,тАЭ Melissa says.
TeBockhorst was careful to balance compassion and honesty. тАЬI had very little expectation that she would ever climb at any real level again.тАЭ
Pain and Uncertainty┬а
Melissa awoke in excruciating pain. Her strong arms were now immobilized. Just moving was a study in pain.
Medications made her nauseous. For 3 weeks, she felt helpless, unable to brush her teeth or hair, wipe her butt, or feed herself. Sleeping was scary — what if she tugged her arms apart? (She tried once; no damage.)
Friends made her thankful. An outpouring of support from the climbing community fanned the embers of hope within. Adam and her family stood by to help the woman who had previously preferred to do everything for herself.
Reactions to trauma vary widely. Ask any doctor, or consult a textbook titled Trauma-Informed Care in Behavioral Health Services. Initial reactions can include тАЬexhaustion, confusion, sadness, anxiety, agitation, numbness, dissociation, confusion,тАЭ among others. It can include a тАЬloss of hope,тАЭ the thought that normal life events won’t happen, and a heightened fear that life could suddenly end.
Melissa knew about life ending suddenly — she’d seen the tunnel. Loss of hope? A little, maybe, but her gratefulness for simply being alive was dominant. Normal life events not happening? Sure, there was some of that.
тАЬI thought about rock climbing because it was a part of me,тАЭ she says. тАЬIt was a sad thought because I didn’t have a lot of optimism on that front. At that point you’re not too greedy. You’re happy someone is helping.тАЭ
You’ve heard of the journey of a thousand miles. The first step, quite literally, is movement.
From her hospital room, she could see the Rockies. Part tease, part inspiration. She needed to take some kind of first step now. She was told of an exercise bike in another room and went to find it. She rested her crossed arms on the handlebars and started pedaling.┬а
тАЬI wasn’t accomplishing much, but I was still moving my legs,тАЭ she says. тАЬAnd I would stare at my thumb that was dying, clearly dying. It was turning black where it was sewed to me. And I was just trying to will blood flow to it.тАЭ Back in her room, she did sit-ups with her sewn arms across her chest.
тАЬInstead of shutting down, I was trying to stay present,тАЭ Melissa says.┬а
For stress reduction, this focus on the here-and-now тАЬis almost a form of meditation, and that can be very therapeutic,тАЭ says James Alan Blumenthal, PhD, professor of psychiatry and behavioral sciences at Duke University’s medical school┬аand author of landmark┬аresearch showing the effectiveness of exercise on depression.
As a hand surgeon, Ignatiuk has shepherded countless patients through very visible injuries that are a blow to the psyche.┬а
тАЬPeople catastrophize over a tiny little fingertip amputation,тАЭ he says. When rehabilitating, some are afraid to use an injured finger, delaying recovery.
Melissa, on the other hand, тАЬstarted her road to recovery immediately,тАЭ says Ignatiuk. тАЬIf you get into a state where you’re in depression, you have a catabolic state, you’re not going to heal your wounds properly.тАЭ
A paper by Stanford researchers that was coincidentally published within weeks of her accident concluded that mindset is crucial to healing, as are a doctor’s support and the patient’s expectations. Melissa was three-for-three.
Exercise and Healing┬а
Doctors know that exercise speeds healing; that’s been shown in repeated studies that were summarized in a 2021 review by Iranian researchers. Moderate exercise boosts immunity and the endocrine system, which is crucial to wound healing. And while healing requires inflammation, too much of it slows the process. People who exercise generally have lower levels of stress-related markers in the blood, a sign of inflammation. (Bonus: Less inflammation can mean less pain.)┬а
Moderate aerobic exercise can act as an antioxidant, helping the body generate blood vessels to nourish new tissue. Low-intensity endurance exercise seems to raise levels of тАЬendothelial progenitor cellsтАЭ that help regenerate the lining of blood vessels. And exercise helps provide oxygen to wounded tissue, helping to synthesize connective tissue while also preventing infection.┬а
But exercise can help mental health too, though there’s much less awareness around that тАУ and less focus on mental health for recovering from physical injuries, even though research shows it can help.┬а
At its simplest, movement is a form of distraction. тАЬYou don’t think about negative things,тАЭ Blumenthal says. тАЬYou focus on the present, not thinking about what happened or what could happen in the future.тАЭ
In a deeper sense, exercise conveys to patients тАЬa sense of mastery and control,тАЭ he says. тАЬThey feel, ‘I’m doing something to improve my health. I’m doing something for me that I have control over.тАЭ Psychiatrists call this тАЬself-efficacy,тАЭ which can lead to greater confidence and a sense of well-being.
The physiological explanation for exercise’s benefits isn’t entirely clear, he says, beyond the endorphin release by exercise, which improves brain chemistry and lifts mood. But anecdotal evidence abounds, Blumenthal says. тАЬPeople who have had a significant injury or loss, whether it be physical or emotional, immensely benefit from physical activity.тАЭ
Even Melissa’s easygoing cycling pace helped, he surmised: тАЬThe incremental benefit of physical activity really begins when a person just starts a program. Even a low level of physical activity is better than nothing,тАЭ
TeBockhorst says the benefits of exercise are тАЬinnumerable and immeasurableтАЭ for both mind and body. After an injury and surgery, тАЬthose benefits are only amplified. It’s the single best thing patients can do for themselves.тАЭ
Melissa seemed instinctively to know this. And yet, as she pedaled the bike, she couldn’t help but look at her left thumb turning black.
After 3 weeks, the surgeons detached her thumbs from her arms, amputated that left thumb tip, used skin from elsewhere on her body to cover remaining nubs and her palms, and bandaged it all up again.
Melissa kept up her exercise routine until it was time to take off the bandages.
Tomorrow and the Next Day┬а
тАЬWhen they showed me my hands for the first time, I was like, ‘You’re kidding me. We’re done?’ But we weren’t done.тАЭ
Surgeons saw healthy pink skin and quietly rejoiced. But Melissa saw тАЬFrankenstein-stitched baseball mitts.тАЭ They encouraged her to use her rebuilt hands, so she asked for a pen and paper.┬а
тАЬHello, my name is Melissa Strong!тАЭ she wrote. тАЬThese are my first words written with my new hands. One day I will climb again!!! And probably will cry a lot along the way which is OK!тАЭ
She tears up when she tells that anecdote. As a child in Massachusetts, Melissa says, she cried all the time. And as tough an athlete as she is as an adult, she’s not Superwoman.
The accident тАЬwas absolutely devastating for her. But I never saw her cry,тАЭ Ignatiuk says. тАЬShe just kept asking more and more questions. You could just tell: She wanted to figure it out.тАЭ
Oh, she cried, Melissa says, just not around her doctors. тАЬI’m good at compartmentalizing. I would take that thought of climbing that was making me sad, let it come out of the box. I would talk about it with my husband if I needed to, and that’s when I would cry.тАЭ
A Vanderbilt University study of 100 years of research found that a positive attitude is crucial to handling stress and healing. Among the keys are knowledge (check), inner resources (check), and social support (check). Melissa’s friends were always there. When the climbing rangers she volunteered with at Rocky Mountain National Park called, she asked that they hold her spot.┬а
Meanwhile, she was distracted with sourcing materials for the restaurant: lighting, paint colors, tiles, menus, everything. тАЬI had to open this restaurant. I had a loan, I had employees,тАЭ she says. тАЬThat was my biggest focus, besides putting all my energy into being positive and hopeful for my best outcome.тАЭ
There were eight surgeries in all, literally fleshing out her now-shortened left thumb, and later repairing weakened bones in it that broke, and dealing with an infection.
тАЬShe’s my best patient ever, no question,тАЭ Ignatiuk says. тАЬThe attitude is the most important. If you have a defeatist attitude, you’re not going to persevere.тАЭ
Whether a patient’s outlook — her mind, really — can somehow cause lower inflammation and raise antioxidant levels is the тАЬmillion-dollar question,тАЭ says Lewina Lee, PhD, a professor of psychiatry at Boston University’s medical school who studies how optimism affects health.┬а
It’s not just biology or behavior. тАЬThey’re probably all acting together,тАЭ says Lee.
An optimistic person tends to exercise more, eat better, and stick to a recovery regimen, which is why they have better outcomes, Lee says. тАЬIn doing so, you may have kind of better┬аbodily chemistry, your inflammation levels may be lower, and your body may react more favorably to your treatment because you have greater adherence.тАЭ┬а
It’s a notable cycle: Biological and behavioral pathways are тАЬall probably acting in concert, or that one is leading to another,тАЭ she says. Optimists tend to have lower levels of inflammation, better endothelial function, higher levels of good cholesterol and lower levels of triglycerides, she says. But it’s just an association: тАЬYou see the two things tracking side by side, but we can’t really say that that causes lower inflammation.тАЭ
Moreover, when an optimist suffers trauma, she will тАЬfocus less on how dire the consequences are, or the pain, and orient herself to the bigger goals.тАЭ┬а
тАЬWe know that optimistic people tend to be more persistent in reaching their goals,тАЭ Lee says, and they may view an injury тАЬmore as a challenge rather than a threat.тАЭ
Back home, Adam bought Melissa a Peloton bike. As her hands healed, she shopped for new holds for their home climbing wall, ones that her now-smaller hands could grip. About 3 months after the accident, she was doing тАЬpull-insтАЭ on their home wall — extending her arms and pulling her body to the wall.┬а
By 6 months, she was climbing easy routes. A year later, she handled a simple traverse on a favorite boulder in the national park. What was once a warm-up now wrung her out, physically and emotionally. But she was back.
Patience and Acceptance┬а
The night of the restaurant’s opening, Adam turned to his wife and said, тАЬYou must be happy. Your dreams are coming true.тАЭ
тАЬYeah,тАЭ she replied, тАЬbut in my dreams I always have my hands.тАЭ
Adam and Melissa used to travel the world to climb: South Africa, Switzerland, Italy. Winters were spent guiding tours at Hueco Tanks, a legendary bouldering site outside of El Paso, TX.┬а
Nearly 6 years after the accident, with the pandemic fading and the restaurant (called Bird & Jim) thriving, Melissa is expanding her business with a new breakfast-and-lunch spot and event venue.
The climbing rangers in the national park held her spot, and she has resumed volunteering with them. She skipped only one winter in Texas. She’s now climbing V7 routes and pushing V8.┬а
тАЬWhat this accident taught me is patience, acceptance,тАЭ she says. тАЬIt forced me to ask for help — first in personal care and then with the restaurant.тАЭ
The Peloton is crucial, she says.┬а
тАЬEvery part of me has to be 10 times stronger than what I was in the past to overcome the loss of fingers and thumbs.┬аYour core, your legs, everything has to be super-strong because my grip isn’t as good. I fall off the boulder a lot because I don’t have the tops of my fingers to really get on those holds.тАЭ
She had to rewire her brain, which would warn her, тАЬDon’t grab that hold, you don’t have fingers!тАЭ But each year, she’s able to cling to progressively smaller holds.
Ignatiuk says her always-strong attitude evolved тАЬonce we had the certainty of what the final result of her hands would be, once she came to that closure and she accepted it. And when she got back to climbing, that’s when she really accelerated.тАЭ
Her athlete’s approach to improvement ┬а— тАЬI couldn’t do this yesterday, but I can todayтАЭ — also set her up for success, Ignatiuk says.┬а
тАЬNow she’s kind of on a new course, and she has to see her improvements in a completely different way,” he says.┬а
A climber is a special kind of person, he says. It’s mostly down to perseverance.┬а
тАЬThe mindset. Focusing on the good, not perseverating on the bad. Her inquisitive nature, the problem-solving skills, overcoming adversity, and having a support group,” says Ignatiuk. тАЬIt was the perfect mix.тАЭ