By
AnnaLynne McCord is sharing insight into her dissociative identity disorder diagnosis (DID), previously known as multiple personality disorder.
The тАЬ90210тАЭ alum spoke to Dr. Daniel Amen with Amen Clinics about DID in an attempt to тАЬdestigmatize mental health problems.тАЭ
тАЬI am absolutely uninterested in shame,тАЭ McCord said of having DID.
RELATED: AnnaLynne McCord Recalled Childhood Sexual Abuse While Receiving PTSD Treatment
тАЬThere is nothing about my journey that I invite shame into anymore,тАЭ she said. тАЬAnd thatтАЩs how we get to the point where we can articulate the nature of these pervasive traumas and stuff, as horrible as they are.тАЭ
In 2019, McCord opened up about being raped as a teenager and the trauma that followed. Discussing memory loss of traumatic events, she added, тАЬI donтАЩt have anything until around 5. Then from 5 to 11, I recount incidents throughout. Then when I was 13, I have a singled-out memory that was one thing, but I donтАЩt have the sense of anything else at that time.тАЭ
Becoming an actress helped McCord realize her disorder.
тАЬAll of my roles were splits, but I didnтАЩt even realize I was doing it at all until I did a project тАШ90210тАЩ,тАЭ she said. But it was 2012тАЩs тАЬExcisionтАЭ that it was noticeable.
RELATED: AnnaLynne McCord Reveals She And тАШ90210тАЩ Co-Star Shenae Grimes Were тАШAt Each OtherтАЩs ThroatsтАЩ
тАЬI played a very cerebral, disturbed, strange little girl that was very close to who I feel I am on the inside. It was very exposing, very confronting, probably a bit re-traumatizing without realizing it,тАЭ McCord said. тАЬThe crazy thing about it was that I wrapped that film at 2 a.m. on a Tuesday and had to be happy, crazy Beverly Hills blonde bombshell on Wednesday at noon. I couldnтАЩt find her, she was not accessible. I was dark, I was very deep into this character Pauline, and I couldnтАЩt get [out].тАЭ
McCord also spoke about тАЬLittle AnnaтАЭ when she was 13, her true identity and spilt.
тАЬShe was a balls to the wall, middle fingers to the sky, anarchist from hell who will stab you with the spike ring that she wears, and youтАЩll like it. Then sheтАЩll make you lick the blood from it,тАЭ McCord said. тАЬShe was a nasty little creature, but I have so much gratitude to her because she got me out of the hell that I was in.тАЭ